the darkness has not overcome it

i had the WEIRDEST dream last night.
( nonsense dream )

i got a LOT done yesterday.
i scrubbed the counters and cleaned the stove and took out the trash and the recycling and cleaned the cat boxes and made phone calls and cleaned up hair balls and made dinner and got a shower all the while felt kind of dazed and half-asleep. i am still not sleeping well (though i did get enough last night).
i also finished shadowbridge before i came to bed. it is a REALLY good book. it blends cultures in really interesting ways and leaves me wanting more. my only real gripe with it is that it doesn't really end. there is no reason for the author to end the book where he does and no signal to the reader that some major event has concluded the story. okay there is a major event, but you know so little about it that it doesn't feel conclusive in the slightest. it isn't just a cliff-hanger. it feels like a chapter ending, not a book ending. i WILL go read the next book.

( ranting here )

...and going to see coraline in the theaters. which was wonderful.
i recommend it.

but last night i dreamt i was going to rescue my best friend.
my best friend had been kidnapped by one of many alien races and was on a planet where only they and their slaves were permitted.
the aliens were caste divided.
i went to the spaceport to meet my teacher and depart. i got (affectionately) attacked by 3 snufflepigs....kinda like big hairy dogs with pig noses. my teacher shooed them off - and was an alien version of patrick stewart. he had 5 eyes and 5 sub-eyes. all different colors. all used for different kinds of communication.
i would be having a third eye and 2 sub-eyes implanted on the trip and he was going to teach me how to use them so that i could pass as one of the castes of aliens and rescue my friend.
it was completely neat.

the weekend turned out much less stressful/full than i anticipated.
for one thing i got the gaming weekend mixed up - that's next weekend.
for another ross and i woke up with headaches on sunday morning and ross decided not to go visit his family. we still had susan over for dinner. and saturday instead of gaming we got the mantle piece up, and i learned about drilling holes in concrete, which is pretty exhausting, but not nearly as hard as i'd imagined. the mantle looks great and there will be pictures once my computer is working again. zombiecomputer is low on the priority list when i can borrow ross's at home and we've got so much else to do. in the meantime, pictures will have to wait.

ross got our taxes done last week and we look forward to getting a substantial return this year. in large part because some of it is going to go to our media server and some of it is going to go to finishing the basement. yes i know we got the walls done. but there is still the ceiling and the carpeting and walling off the washer/dryer and furnace.

sunday was all about errands and going to see coraline and going out for breakfast. all of which was lovely.
it felt good not to be so hectic....i just still feel so tired. hollow inside. like i'm getting rested on the outside, but not on the inside....and ross doesn't seem tired at all. i don't know how he does it.

last night i dreamed that i flew to va and hung out with sunmother and extended family and came up with food ideas for the holiday coming up...only i wasn't there for the holidays yet. i had to fly back. and i ripped the butt out of my jeans. so mom too me to the mall to this custom jeans maker and it took forever. and i missed my flight.
it was a pretty rotten dream.

but the preceding weekend was mostly good.
i went to the mall before going to drunken knit night on friday, in hopes of finding shoes. i had no luck on the shoes, but did get some piercing studs, which revealed that my earring holes have NOT all closed up after my surgery (when i had to take the earrings out and couldn't put them back in again). everything is open in my right ear and the left ear is more open that i had thought. all very good. also picked up some stocking stuffers for ross. then i stopped at borealis. that is always dangerous.
( damage beneath the cut )

heather and deborah both cancelled for drunken knitting night, but that was probably good because it was PACKED. i did get to hang out with renae. there must have been more than 30 people there. there were also bagpipes. it was a good time. i realised that "thumb gusset" sounds like a dirty thing to call someone.

saturday morning was spinning group and heather keiweg came and it was totally enjoyable. i haven't gotten to spin for a while now because i've been so focused on getting xmas ( knitting done. )
anyway, i almost filled my bobbin. i believe i have gotten my mother of all tightened down enough that ross may stop making suggestions about dado-ing my spinning wheel as well. that would be very good because i think putting a dado in would drastically reduce flexibility if i wound up getting a different flyer.

then corrin came over and we made jelly. two different kinds, habanero cranbery raspbery and pomegranate raspberry. both are completely made of awesome, especially the pomegranate raspberry on ice cream.mmmm... we canned a little over a dozen jars and i got my hands all full of habanero oils and had to wash my hands about 50 times and even then my hands burned just a little bit because the steam from the canner was hot. but it was mostly a good kind of burn. we had to do part of the cooking of the habanero jelly outside because the habaneros are so potent.

sunday ross and i went to see the new bond film, which neither one of us was impressed with. bond was good, m was good, but nothing else about the movie really hung together or was compelling. i don't expect depth from a bond film, but i do expect a good story.
then we went home and watched the spiderwick chronicles and that was very good. i got a lot of knitting done on the cabled scarf i'm making for my brother. i will likely finish it this week. the cabling looks awesome but the scarf badly needs to be blocked.

yesterday i stayed home from work because my neck was all wrapped up in muscle cramps to the point where i was fairly useless. hot showers, extra sleep, heating pads and lots of alleve seem to have calmed it down enough for me to be at work today, but it still hurts. i don't know if it cramped up because i slept on it funny or because of the sudden lack of stress in my life. either way i wish it would go way.

tomorrow i'm getting the oil changed on my car and today i am going to the butcher and we are having friends over for dinner. at some point i need to get my xmas candy done. it is going to be a busy week.

got a weird one for ya.
last night i dreamt that xerotic, durlindana, and ashoe and i were at ...something that was a cross between a convention and summercamp. our rooms were like hotel rooms. xerotic, durlindana and i shared a room and we were going to all go some place together so we were getting ready there when one of the fascility people came and was organizing dodgeball.
there were these neat plastic shoes in different colors for playing. i went to go play, but was sad because xerotic wouldn't come.


how is it i don't see you people, but i dream about you?
we had AWESOME thunderstorms yesterday.
it poured for maybe 3 hours in the evening and we ended up with about 2 inches. badly needed inches.

i feel like i should be preparing for something today, but i can't figure out what.

this weekend was lovely.
friday i finished my second knithulhu....(and i already have requests for more! really i should sell them on etsy)
ross and i had a lovely dinner at the local indian place and then went to see 88 minutes - which he liked and i hated. the acting was great. but al pacino yells a lot and i don't like yelling. and i didn't like any of the characters. and there was too much cutting and suspense for me. and then ross and i had a disturbing conversation and i had nightmares.
so i gues that part wasn't so good.
but saturday was sunny and i started the PRETTIEST socks ever. they are called marie antoinette socks and they feature honeybees in the lace pattern. and i am using a super smooshy cat's pajamas yarn that i love.
also i read a lot. i finished newton's cannon by greg keyes. it wasn't great, but it was enjoyable. i liked the characterizations and the alternate history was very interesting even if there were parts of it i didn't buy. i am now about half-way through kepler's witch, a biography of astronomer johannes kepler, his science, his religion and his mother's trial as a witch during the 30 years war. it is very interesting.

ross and i went out to see forbidden kingdom as a matinee. it was fun. not a great movie, but a good one. then we met jory and simona for some food and drinks at washington square.
yesterday was beautiful and spent with more movies (at home), more reading, more knitting, and a walk in the beautiful sunshine with ross.
overall a very relaxing and wonderful weekend.

all this crap about spring cleaning has got me thinking about REALLY cleaning...like...my house.
also it's REALLY quiet at work and i am bored.

also i'm really worried i'm going to do something embarrassing like fart in my sleep or something tonight during the sleep study. *shudders*

also i dreampt i had a baby last night and it wasn't a tragedy. i was actually happy even though it was unplanned (just in the dream. i was appalled when i woke up). i think it has to do with all the people around me breeding. i don't understand how i could possibly be happy. stupid hormones in my subconscious. i like OTHER people's babies. doesn't mean i want one.
also in my dream i was a superhero.
that part was cool.

it snowed yesterday.
today it is -11 with winds from the north. i keep track of the wind by watching the smoke stack at one of the other buildings in the 3M campus.

really unpleasant dream last night.

in other news, i stressed out before class on tuesday and had to GO to class to chill out. met up with ross and the girls at barley john's breifly.
dana was sick yesterday and she and i wound up taking naps in the afternoon. we both felt better (her stomach was settled and i had more energy) and went to kieran's afterward. it was quite pleasant.
i continue to be somewhat exhausted. i wish i had more energy for everyone.

really weird dream last night involving ross being mixed up with the mob.
they were presenting him with the horn from a norwhal (beautifully polished), and telling him that it was something else.
i don't know why i was invited, but i called the mob boss by his first name (Chris).
he told me to call him godfather.
some strange things happened after that. i don't clearly recall what.

i dreamed that ross was going to be in a movie.
he was playing an evil wizard. his daughter was the advisor to the king and he got her taken out of the position and then corrupted and possessed her replacement. the new wizard turned black as ross's character took him over.
pretty cool dream.