kidnapping and betrayal dream
Jul. 24th, 2008 06:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
2eclipseearlier this week i dreamt about skydiving.
i think last night was the pay-off. that and a combination of the book i'm reading and my current unhappiness with VOLT. i dreamed that i was kidnapped by friends from high school, college and game and held blind-folded in an old house until i lost my job for missing too much work without calling. what's worse is that even my closest friends were part of it and didn't stop it. they didn't understand the magnitude of what they had done or that losing my job was a big deal. i decided to file a police report.
but i wasn't sure how to go about it and so i talked to my parents...and realized that it wasn't just these two horrible things, but also that i was psychologically damaged from being previously kidnapped by someone who meant it badly and who had celebrity connections and didn't need to fear the law for some reason. i then re-lived that incedent. the kidnapper's mother was sympathetic, but completely unhelpful. i was released when the kidnapper found a new interest. so what might have been a scary, but otherwise harmless prank (my friends didn't beat me or starve me or anything), became much, much worse because of the previous kidnapping and the fact that i lost my job. my mother fell asleep while i was trying to tell her about it to get her advice and my father left and went in the hot tub.
it was awful.
Jungian analysis: i learned this dream analysis from my therapist parents and think the results are interesting for this dream. for those of you inexperienced with jungian dream analysis, what you have to do first is accept that everything in the dream is you - some part of your consciousness. my friends aren't my friends and my parents aren't my parents. so you think about the dream and speak to yourself AS each part of the dream.
Results: when i speak as myself in each part of this dream, this is what i get.
this dream is primarily about my job, and the kidnapping is about feeling trapped and helpless. my friends (mainly represented by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sidhedevil and illusionstar interestingly enough) in the dream represent all the securities i imagine will protect me, but are actually out for their own interest. specifically, they are my current situation in a job with a year contract which FEELS secure, but isn't really. it just allows me to pretend. and while it pays (loves me as my friends), it doesn't pay nearly enough or provide benefits enough to satisfy me in the life i want for myself (doesn't understand that what they are doing is wrong).
i can't figure out if my parents in the dream represent the limits of my real-life friends' sympathy, or if they are the job market. maybe they are both. i have been whining about wanting a job in my field for years and in my own mind my friends have every right to be bored to sleep by it. and the job market....just doesn't have the same concerns i do. it would be where i would go to change my situation, but is interested in the work i can do, not my sob story. at the same time...it is represented by my parents, who are basically good people. therefore the job market/my friends are not totally unsympathetic, just...undilligent and involved with other things. a different tactic could change the response i got.
the kidnapper himself, in the dream, is corrupt corporate america. completely out for his own ends and heedless of the consequences to the less fortunate. exploitative and greedy and easily distracted to the next sexy market. his mother is the government. ineffectual and largely controlled by corporate america, but acknowledging of the corruption there. she only had power with things her son didn't care about in the dream, and was only able to release me when he was interested in something else. this is pretty much exactly in line with what i actually think about the government and corporate america, although not the whole picture.
conclusion: i need to get out of this job and into something better. pronto.
i think last night was the pay-off. that and a combination of the book i'm reading and my current unhappiness with VOLT. i dreamed that i was kidnapped by friends from high school, college and game and held blind-folded in an old house until i lost my job for missing too much work without calling. what's worse is that even my closest friends were part of it and didn't stop it. they didn't understand the magnitude of what they had done or that losing my job was a big deal. i decided to file a police report.
but i wasn't sure how to go about it and so i talked to my parents...and realized that it wasn't just these two horrible things, but also that i was psychologically damaged from being previously kidnapped by someone who meant it badly and who had celebrity connections and didn't need to fear the law for some reason. i then re-lived that incedent. the kidnapper's mother was sympathetic, but completely unhelpful. i was released when the kidnapper found a new interest. so what might have been a scary, but otherwise harmless prank (my friends didn't beat me or starve me or anything), became much, much worse because of the previous kidnapping and the fact that i lost my job. my mother fell asleep while i was trying to tell her about it to get her advice and my father left and went in the hot tub.
it was awful.
Jungian analysis: i learned this dream analysis from my therapist parents and think the results are interesting for this dream. for those of you inexperienced with jungian dream analysis, what you have to do first is accept that everything in the dream is you - some part of your consciousness. my friends aren't my friends and my parents aren't my parents. so you think about the dream and speak to yourself AS each part of the dream.
Results: when i speak as myself in each part of this dream, this is what i get.
this dream is primarily about my job, and the kidnapping is about feeling trapped and helpless. my friends (mainly represented by
sidhedevil and illusionstar interestingly enough) in the dream represent all the securities i imagine will protect me, but are actually out for their own interest. specifically, they are my current situation in a job with a year contract which FEELS secure, but isn't really. it just allows me to pretend. and while it pays (loves me as my friends), it doesn't pay nearly enough or provide benefits enough to satisfy me in the life i want for myself (doesn't understand that what they are doing is wrong).i can't figure out if my parents in the dream represent the limits of my real-life friends' sympathy, or if they are the job market. maybe they are both. i have been whining about wanting a job in my field for years and in my own mind my friends have every right to be bored to sleep by it. and the job market....just doesn't have the same concerns i do. it would be where i would go to change my situation, but is interested in the work i can do, not my sob story. at the same time...it is represented by my parents, who are basically good people. therefore the job market/my friends are not totally unsympathetic, just...undilligent and involved with other things. a different tactic could change the response i got.
the kidnapper himself, in the dream, is corrupt corporate america. completely out for his own ends and heedless of the consequences to the less fortunate. exploitative and greedy and easily distracted to the next sexy market. his mother is the government. ineffectual and largely controlled by corporate america, but acknowledging of the corruption there. she only had power with things her son didn't care about in the dream, and was only able to release me when he was interested in something else. this is pretty much exactly in line with what i actually think about the government and corporate america, although not the whole picture.
conclusion: i need to get out of this job and into something better. pronto.