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i'm still mad at my friend.
i love her. we have been friends since we were 12. that is a long time.
but i want reparation.
i want her to apologize for hurting me and acting like my abusive ex-fiance.
i want her to tell me she understand that bitching me out for 20 minutes after i've acknowledged my bad judgment is not okay and humbly ask my forgiveness.
i'm not going to get it.
i'm still so angry i want to staple her to something uncomfortable until she can tell me exactly why i'm so hurt by what she did.
i wrote her an e-mail and didn't send it. i know better than to trust myself right now. it is a rough draft and she will get it only after i've cleared it of landmines (with the help of others).
my question for ya'll in the meantime is: what do you do when you're angry like this with a friend/sister/brother? how do you purge your anger? what do you do when you're pretty sure you're 80% right, but your habit is to stick up for yourself only 20%? what do you do when waiting for time to take care of it doesn't feel like enough?
i love her. we have been friends since we were 12. that is a long time.
but i want reparation.
i want her to apologize for hurting me and acting like my abusive ex-fiance.
i want her to tell me she understand that bitching me out for 20 minutes after i've acknowledged my bad judgment is not okay and humbly ask my forgiveness.
i'm not going to get it.
i'm still so angry i want to staple her to something uncomfortable until she can tell me exactly why i'm so hurt by what she did.
i wrote her an e-mail and didn't send it. i know better than to trust myself right now. it is a rough draft and she will get it only after i've cleared it of landmines (with the help of others).
my question for ya'll in the meantime is: what do you do when you're angry like this with a friend/sister/brother? how do you purge your anger? what do you do when you're pretty sure you're 80% right, but your habit is to stick up for yourself only 20%? what do you do when waiting for time to take care of it doesn't feel like enough?
