no game for me tonight
Mar. 24th, 2005 06:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
2eclipsethat is the consensus of my throat, nose and lungs this evening.
however i did go get coffee with mom, which means i have energy. just no voice.
i am currently making myself some echinacea tea with which to combat the stuffy ickyness.
wow....
i can tell when i have been reading![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ashoe's lj. i start thinking in her words (luv ya, babe!)
anywho, that is another story. my mother and i have been arguing A LOT recently. she's been driving me bonkers with wedding stuff and just in general pesting me when i have no time/patience/etc.
last night i came home from MN sick and she was asking me all kinds of questions, oblivious to my sore throat (which i DID mention) and just in general demanding that i talk lots.
i mentioned that ross takes good care of me when i am sick.
and she started joking around pretending to be jealous.
the thing is, she IS jealous. she wasn't joking.
now. my mom is great and she DOES have more maturity than that. she is HAPPY that ross takes good care of me. but she is jealous that i am giving more attention to my relationship with ross than i am to her....or at least it seems that way to her. and she is mad at me for falling for a guy who lives half-way across the country and being willing to move out there.
i think that she knows that's her problem and not mine...
but i explained to her a bit that i am having to distance from her emotionally in order to be able to leave physically in a month or so. and that the emotional clinging that she is doing just make me want to withdraw more.
we had this heart-to-heart....which wound up being really enjoyable and we went out for coffee and i think that now that she has had her "heather fix" things will be good for a while. i just hope everything is easier after i move.
i AM feeling more human than yesterday and hoping to be at the CotC thing tomorrow eve.
in the meantime i have an extensive TO DO list.
top of that list is to get my car inspected.
which feels awfully silly since i will be changing states soon. but maybe i can get some kind of discount on the va car-tax.
i also need to start thinking about packing.
i have a lot of CRAP.
not furniture, mind. just crap.
soap-making stuff, candle-making stuff, gardening stuff, linens, kitchen stuff....everything that's been collecting dust in the garage for the past two years while i live without a lot of space to invade....
teehee....i'm a space invader....teehee.
alright. WAY too punchy. gotta stop that.
i got accepted at luther seminary as a non-program student.
which means that now i get to decide whether to take hebrew or greek (again).
i would take german, but they aren't offering it for credit.
i am LEANING toward hebrew. more useful than ancient greek unless you are trying to use it to dig up meanings in english or german.
in the meantime i am in straight denial about two things:
A. that i have to write three papers between now and may 4
and
B. how much i am going to miss all of you. when i got involved with owbn last june (has it only been nine months that i've known ya'll?!) i had no CLUE how many friends i was going to make or how much ya'll would come to mean to me. thank you so much for making me feel welcome and cared for.
i am blessed to have such friends and i hope you will not forget me when i go.
i am contemplating throwing a big party at some point before i go. the trick is to figure out when.
however i did go get coffee with mom, which means i have energy. just no voice.
i am currently making myself some echinacea tea with which to combat the stuffy ickyness.
wow....
i can tell when i have been reading
ashoe's lj. i start thinking in her words (luv ya, babe!)anywho, that is another story. my mother and i have been arguing A LOT recently. she's been driving me bonkers with wedding stuff and just in general pesting me when i have no time/patience/etc.
last night i came home from MN sick and she was asking me all kinds of questions, oblivious to my sore throat (which i DID mention) and just in general demanding that i talk lots.
i mentioned that ross takes good care of me when i am sick.
and she started joking around pretending to be jealous.
the thing is, she IS jealous. she wasn't joking.
now. my mom is great and she DOES have more maturity than that. she is HAPPY that ross takes good care of me. but she is jealous that i am giving more attention to my relationship with ross than i am to her....or at least it seems that way to her. and she is mad at me for falling for a guy who lives half-way across the country and being willing to move out there.
i think that she knows that's her problem and not mine...
but i explained to her a bit that i am having to distance from her emotionally in order to be able to leave physically in a month or so. and that the emotional clinging that she is doing just make me want to withdraw more.
we had this heart-to-heart....which wound up being really enjoyable and we went out for coffee and i think that now that she has had her "heather fix" things will be good for a while. i just hope everything is easier after i move.
i AM feeling more human than yesterday and hoping to be at the CotC thing tomorrow eve.
in the meantime i have an extensive TO DO list.
top of that list is to get my car inspected.
which feels awfully silly since i will be changing states soon. but maybe i can get some kind of discount on the va car-tax.
i also need to start thinking about packing.
i have a lot of CRAP.
not furniture, mind. just crap.
soap-making stuff, candle-making stuff, gardening stuff, linens, kitchen stuff....everything that's been collecting dust in the garage for the past two years while i live without a lot of space to invade....
teehee....i'm a space invader....teehee.
alright. WAY too punchy. gotta stop that.
i got accepted at luther seminary as a non-program student.
which means that now i get to decide whether to take hebrew or greek (again).
i would take german, but they aren't offering it for credit.
i am LEANING toward hebrew. more useful than ancient greek unless you are trying to use it to dig up meanings in english or german.
in the meantime i am in straight denial about two things:
A. that i have to write three papers between now and may 4
and
B. how much i am going to miss all of you. when i got involved with owbn last june (has it only been nine months that i've known ya'll?!) i had no CLUE how many friends i was going to make or how much ya'll would come to mean to me. thank you so much for making me feel welcome and cared for.
i am blessed to have such friends and i hope you will not forget me when i go.
i am contemplating throwing a big party at some point before i go. the trick is to figure out when.
