my life is not boring....

[2eclipse]

....i just need to remember to be grateful for it.
actually i AM grateful for it, but interesting isn't always good.
for instance, this morning i caught leto mounting his sister.

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they are only 5 months old. a little shy of that, actually. SHE may not be sexually mature, but he definitely is. ross and i have been trying to schedule something for her for a while now and just haven't put it as high enough priority. i left him a note this morning asking him to take her in. if he can't do it...well i'll stay home from st. cloud this weekend and get her fixed. ross is helping them roof this weekend. much as i would dearly love to see eltanin and wilderheart, we do not need MORE kittens. especially inbred ones.

game last night was pleasant, but not as much fun as the first session
there are three of this in this game, of various levels of skill at gaming. J and I are actively trying to make this game darker, but only J is really doing a good job at it. M is having trouble getting into the character she created. the game is, as a result, only slightly dark, with J's doing things like raping people he likes and my character doing things like stalking and beating M and generally failing at everything else she tries to do and poor M trying to figure out what her character thinks about all this. i honestly feel bad for her. i think we were all having a bit of trouble STAYING in the moment of the game though last night, which we talked about afterward.
story-wise there is just something about this game that leads both M's mind and mine to silliness. whether this is because of how cliche the set-up is with the relationship between master and minion, or because she and i both have the kind of sense of humor that kicks in to relieve tension when moments start to have sharp edges..? i'm not sure, but it is part of the problem of staying IN the game for me. i am enjoying this game, but i'm glad it is a 3-shot game and not some long campaign.
mechanics-wise, this is a game that is set up so that 3 stories (or however many characters you have)run parallel, but don't necessarily intersect unless you make them. this leads to a lot of time being "the audience" to another's story, which is usually pretty enjoyable, but i don't think would work well for more than 4 people. additionally, whenever a tie is rolled between a PC and an NPC who is not the master, the mechanics dictate an interuption...and some interruptions are better than others for stopping the moment in a way that allows you to stay in character instead of wrestling with how on earth your character would deal with the interruption. i think this is a flaw in the game, but also one that can be worked through with a little creativity from all sides.
there are also some things i really like about this game. i like that the players create the nature of "master" at the onset of the game and that the GM has to play what they have created for him. i also like the parallel stories. it adds a complexity that is interesting to me. and i like the tension between love, world-weariness, self-loathing, fear and reason that takes place with the different scenarios. it's pretty hopeless, but it's laid out in such a sensible way with x+y always = z, that you don't actually FEEL hopeless. i rather take kind of a perverse joy in making horrible things happen to my character.

mainly the good news is that i have an interview at the U of M. or rather, i will once i have stopped playing phone tag. the position is basically doing the same type of thing i'm doing now. but it's a REAL job, not a contract job. with benefits. and tuition reembursement. and a pay raise. i could really use those things. i'm still interested in all of the things i have previously talked about. but i want some security too.

Comments

[lucifermourning.livejournal.com]

good luck with the interview. it sounds like there are potentially a lot of positives there.

[2eclipse.livejournal.com]

thanks. i will take all i can get. :)