my mom is innocent of anything recent. she just has a lot of affection for me. and she misses me. and she is completely incapable of hiding how much from me. and this is 90% a good thing. there have been a few occassions and one period of time (after i moved to mn) when i have felt dumped on and it was bad enough that i internalized it. so now i am rebelling against "my inner mom" that dumps "i miss you" messages on me whenever i admit to myself or anyone else that i miss her too. it makes me so angry that sometimes i won't do anything she suggests, just because SHE was the one who suggested it, but it isn't entirely her fault.
ross and i get the same vibes about the church...but they are almost all-important to him, where as they are only a factor for me. certainly i will want his opinion, but since he mostly never goes with me anyway? i will be making my own choice.
the movie i saw yesterday wasn't horror. it was just sad in a very real way that made me feel very helpless. i hate feeling helpless.
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Date: 2008-03-24 07:30 pm (UTC)she just has a lot of affection for me. and she misses me. and she is completely incapable of hiding how much from me.
and this is 90% a good thing.
there have been a few occassions and one period of time (after i moved to mn) when i have felt dumped on and it was bad enough that i internalized it. so now i am rebelling against "my inner mom" that dumps "i miss you" messages on me whenever i admit to myself or anyone else that i miss her too. it makes me so angry that sometimes i won't do anything she suggests, just because SHE was the one who suggested it, but it isn't entirely her fault.
ross and i get the same vibes about the church...but they are almost all-important to him, where as they are only a factor for me. certainly i will want his opinion, but since he mostly never goes with me anyway? i will be making my own choice.
the movie i saw yesterday wasn't horror. it was just sad in a very real way that made me feel very helpless. i hate feeling helpless.
love to you and that redhead.