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today has been much better.
MUCH better.
i slept a lot.
and i got a massage from oneonajourney which was awesome. she did some really interesting energy work that i could feel even though she wasn't touching me and i had my eyes closed and couldn't see what she was doing. when she was done i felt...balanced from right to left instead of like i was all crushed with pain on my right jaw (where the russian chic stabbed me).

but most important the anti-nausea meds are working.
so i had a soft boiled egg. and a little lo mein. and some ice cream that wasn't very good. and some kiwi. it still adds up to maybe 1 meal in total for a normal person, but that's HUGE for me and what i've been eating.
and the meds don't kick me so hard in the head (or the stomach) when i have a little something in my stomach. so i'm hoping that now i will be able to knit and read a little and watch movies through the duration of my recovery instead of sleeping, going to the bathroom and taking meds on a repeat cycle.
i should also say that lonewolfnight has been absolutely amazing through this whole process. rigging me up music so that i can listen in the guest room to my ipod, getting up and checking on me in the night, running himself ragged to make sure i get anything weird checked out by the doctor, fixing my meds, taking me to every appointment, encouraging me to eat...he has exhausted himself on my behalf. he has been an angel. i am so lucky to have a man who cares for me so much.

i still can't talk at all.
i have to write everything down on paper except for very short whispered statements when i am at my BEST right after my meds. so those who are hoping for a phone call? it ain't gonna happen. it's not personal. it's just impossible. unless you want me to call and hang up without saying anything, which in my book is just rude.

so thank you very much to all who have kept me in thoughts, prayers and well-wishes. i'm sure i've still got far to go, but i think i've cleared the worst of it.