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is creeping away from me.
i honestly meant to get studying done yesterday. and it just didn't happen. i went to go hang out with vale797 at his work. i even brought my GRE stuff with me. but i asked him for stories from last year's nonclave and that was the end. z wrote me a note that said "have fun at your game" that boy knows me too well.
but i did, truly have a blast. which doesn't normally happen at work. then again i don't normally go see people at THEIR workplace. z and i introduced him to total wine and more. excellent place. great theology conversation last night after dinner too. with vale797 and with americanbadass.
i still don't think that it is normal that i am spending my thursdays pretending to be a monster. worse, that i am spending time during the rest of the week thinking about it and sometimes wishing i could do it more. but i have been absolutely AMAZED at how many people i actually LIKE at SOTM. I don't think i have felt so at home with such a large group of people since high school. which leads me to question. am i regressing back to something i was? if so, what did i do with my life to
lose what i had? did i just miss something? maybe i just never grew out of playing make-believe. maybe it is not the same at all and this hobby just acts as a magnet for people who ask questions about things (as well as many people who don't).
regardless i feel fortunate to know this group of people.
i also feel that my life is nuts and i won't get half of what i need to accomplished this week.
current mood: frazzled
current music: is this supposed to be what is in your head or playing outside your head? i am not listening to anything, but i have everyday people stuck in my head from talking to misha.
i honestly meant to get studying done yesterday. and it just didn't happen. i went to go hang out with vale797 at his work. i even brought my GRE stuff with me. but i asked him for stories from last year's nonclave and that was the end. z wrote me a note that said "have fun at your game" that boy knows me too well.
but i did, truly have a blast. which doesn't normally happen at work. then again i don't normally go see people at THEIR workplace. z and i introduced him to total wine and more. excellent place. great theology conversation last night after dinner too. with vale797 and with americanbadass.
i still don't think that it is normal that i am spending my thursdays pretending to be a monster. worse, that i am spending time during the rest of the week thinking about it and sometimes wishing i could do it more. but i have been absolutely AMAZED at how many people i actually LIKE at SOTM. I don't think i have felt so at home with such a large group of people since high school. which leads me to question. am i regressing back to something i was? if so, what did i do with my life to
lose what i had? did i just miss something? maybe i just never grew out of playing make-believe. maybe it is not the same at all and this hobby just acts as a magnet for people who ask questions about things (as well as many people who don't).
regardless i feel fortunate to know this group of people.
i also feel that my life is nuts and i won't get half of what i need to accomplished this week.
current mood: frazzled
current music: is this supposed to be what is in your head or playing outside your head? i am not listening to anything, but i have everyday people stuck in my head from talking to misha.