This is probably going to sound really really strange coming from me, but that's because I don't really have words for it yet, it's just something I do, am, and live with.
I take my joy in victory, whether it be from improving someone's day, or their mood without actually affecting their day, or solving a problem that I was faced with. Victory is really the wrong word, but perhaps it's two fields. One of which involves solving other people's problems, and one of which involves solving problems in general.
The main thing I somehow managed to instinctively take away from this whole work and/or life perception I have of things is something of an "I'm not done yet" stance.
Most often, it involves putting a lot of stuff on the back burner and leaving it as "the best I could do" or "the best I was allowed to do" at the time, but the fact that I can't finish something right now doesn't mean I can't finish it later in a different (usually seemingly non-related)way. Not always the best option for my sanity, but sometimes the only option when other things are taken into consideration.
I'm beginning to think that it's pretty uniquely my thought process, but I don't exactly spend a lot of time quizzing other people about it.
I also don't assume it'll work for anyone else, but for me, it means that I'm rarely ruled by any situation or instance.
Regardless of my comfort level with a situation, especially when it's partially out of my control, the situation itself gets put in a sort of limbo.
If it's important, I trust it'll come up until I recognize it, recall what I'm supposed to from it, or learn to face whatever I need to from it, whether it be some random phone number, a person I couldn't see I'd wronged at the time, the name and details of a rarely used software program that I otherwise wouldn't have remembered if I'd laid the whole experience to rest initially, or an insight into a personal imrovement I was blind to at the time. When something haunts my dreams it's rarely serving a purpose other than torture. I tend to kindly invite things back when they'd like to become productive thoughts at that point.
I guess maybe the question I'm trying to ask is, what do you really feel that you could happily spend the rest of your life doing?
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Date: 2006-12-07 07:41 am (UTC)I take my joy in victory, whether it be from improving someone's day, or their mood without actually affecting their day, or solving a problem that I was faced with. Victory is really the wrong word, but perhaps it's two fields. One of which involves solving other people's problems, and one of which involves solving problems in general.
The main thing I somehow managed to instinctively take away from this whole work and/or life perception I have of things is something of an "I'm not done yet" stance.
Most often, it involves putting a lot of stuff on the back burner and leaving it as "the best I could do" or "the best I was allowed to do" at the time, but the fact that I can't finish something right now doesn't mean I can't finish it later in a different (usually seemingly non-related)way. Not always the best option for my sanity, but sometimes the only option when other things are taken into consideration.
I'm beginning to think that it's pretty uniquely my thought process, but I don't exactly spend a lot of time quizzing other people about it.
I also don't assume it'll work for anyone else, but for me, it means that I'm rarely ruled by any situation or instance.
Regardless of my comfort level with a situation, especially when it's partially out of my control, the situation itself gets put in a sort of limbo.
If it's important, I trust it'll come up until I recognize it, recall what I'm supposed to from it, or learn to face whatever I need to from it, whether it be some random phone number, a person I couldn't see I'd wronged at the time, the name and details of a rarely used software program that I otherwise wouldn't have remembered if I'd laid the whole experience to rest initially, or an insight into a personal imrovement I was blind to at the time. When something haunts my dreams it's rarely serving a purpose other than torture. I tend to kindly invite things back when they'd like to become productive thoughts at that point.
I guess maybe the question I'm trying to ask is, what do you really feel that you could happily spend the rest of your life doing?