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2eclipse ([personal profile] 2eclipse) wrote2005-10-02 10:18 am
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last minute....

so ross's wedding ring was supposed to come friday and didn't. and the company who made it isn't open on weekends.
we WERE planning on leaving early tomorrow morning and taking care of that...but it looks like it will be later rather than earlier.
additionally, the guy who was supposed to help us with hook ups for places to stay at reasonable prices failed to fax us the information.
and we didn't get done half the stuff we meant to yesterday.
but i DID try a new recipe for pumpkin soup. honest to god, cooked in the pumpkin soup.....
it was VERY bland. i fixed it.
but it still doesn't taste much like pumpkin. just like pretty good beef-vegetable soup with pumpkin chunks in it.
the next soup i try will have pumpkin puree in it. that might work better.


at least it wasn't about the wedding.
but i dreamed i killed someone.
i was in this really cool house in a community of people much more primitive than ours...kinda...colonial american-ish. then i heard the lock on the door snick shut and yelling outside. the people in the community were being forced into slavery. i found a closet with some really odd weapons in it...i mean. i guess they were weapons. one of them looked like a pick. except the handle was marble and the point was made of wood. some of the women who had been locked in the room with me had chopped a hole in another door and set themselves free. they ran off to safety. i went through the hole with the pick and asked for the man in charge. i was led to a butcher shop and went to the gate that led to the area behind the counter. i chatted with the fat man with dark hair behind the counter for a bit, then i shoved the pick through his guts and threw him down the stairs. all the people went free.
but i had killed someone. i felt surreal and tainted. like nothing i did could ever possibly be good again. i lived the rest of my life like i was sleep-walking.

[identity profile] journeyintoday.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
More nightmares...

Hang in there, Pookie. :)

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:12 pm (UTC)(link)
at least they are not wedding nightmares or otherwise ross-related. i'll be fine.

[identity profile] ashoe.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
:hugs:

Jitters take weird shapes sometimes, no? Everything is going to be just fine.

love!

~a

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:14 pm (UTC)(link)
yick. i don't want jitters. i don't FEEL jittery, really....just like everything is kinda surreal. like i'm not freaked out, so obviously this can't be real right? aren't brides SUPPOSED to freak?

[identity profile] ashoe.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:20 pm (UTC)(link)
actually, surreal is about right for this stage. And you are freaked out, a bit - your brain is- but at least you're not Bridezilla, so count yer blessings :)

the whole thing may feel surreal, and the closer you get, the weirder is is.

hugs.

~a

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:21 pm (UTC)(link)
when do i get to stop feeling weird?

[identity profile] ashoe.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 01:54 pm (UTC)(link)
From my experience: about a week or two after the wedding. :)

~a

Or more

[identity profile] cuddlejunkie1.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Or more. John and I still freak when either of us says Husband or wife...maybe strange but there it is.

Re: Or more

[identity profile] rojir.livejournal.com 2005-10-03 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
Absolutely right...it takes a lot of practice to go "this is my wife", when you've been saying "girlfriend" or "fiancee". Takes a bit of getting used to.

Ashoe is right...surreal is exactly how you should be feeling. Kinda like you're walking in a dream.

And remember one thing: Some people believe all dreams have significance. I sometimes believe that what I dream is just left over reruns from things I've seen or read. Based on what I know of your interests, stabbing a man in a dream isn't that big a deal. Besides, it's only when you act that it matters, right?

Re: Or more

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-04 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
When did you start feeling normal again? ...or have you yet? Did you have a lot of pre-wedding nightmares/dreams?

Re: Or more

[identity profile] rojir.livejournal.com 2005-10-04 05:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Normal is a bad word for me. Comfortable with the difference, now there's a different story. It took a while(probably a couple of months before I completely had it down), but I got the hang of it.

And you will too.

As far as dreams/nightmares, I'm sure I had some interesting ones. I know I had one where Megan and I were really old(like 70 or so), and that was interesting. Meg had to feed me.

God, I love that woman.

[identity profile] magikay.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 09:22 am (UTC)(link)
hang in there. hopefully monday will be more promising in the follow through department.

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:15 pm (UTC)(link)
damn skippy!
i hope so. mainly i want his ring here pronto.
hey i haven't seen you to send you my condolences. i heard your and laura's sad news. everything going okay?

*hugs*

[identity profile] ninkakitty.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 10:39 am (UTC)(link)
Ick.

*more hugs and tons of love*

Re: *hugs*

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:17 pm (UTC)(link)
it could be SO much worse.
*hugs back*
i am trying to keep perspective.

[identity profile] cuddlejunkie1.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 10:56 am (UTC)(link)
Hugs...It will all be okay really....It always works out.

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
wah.
that is what my friend laura tells me. that the next morning you wake up and it is still the same wonderful man you wanted to marry next to you.
that is what i am praying for.

[identity profile] 2eclipse.livejournal.com 2005-10-02 12:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Also i want to know WHEN we get to see scotland pictures!!!!