this weekend was deeply good for me.
like going to a spa without actually going to a spa.
friday night ross and i watched some sopranos from netflix. ross got our new media server up and running and we can both vnc into it from our computers to use it in an environment where the mouse is easier to use. best of all - i can use it to run my ipod. i actually have a working ipod for the first time in about 5 months!!! anyone out there with a podcast, let me know what it is!!!
...then we got into this really long complicated conversation about our relationship...and it was much needed, but i had been dreading it. and then when we talked i found it was nothing to dread. we are getting better and better at this kind of communication. less and less often do our differences become something i would call a fight and he would call an argument. more and more we are a team. i wish i didn't have so many resistances to thinking anyone could honestly be out for my best interest....but damn it all if ross doesn't keep proving it. and slowly. i open.
which is funny. i mean, i really thought of myself as open...but marriage is teaching me that it's untrue. i've been open only in the ways i want to be. only in the ways it is comfortable, or that make me look good to myself. real openness includes all the things you hate about yourself....and i feel like i keep discovering those - the places i didn't know i was hiding.
i am very in love with ross anderson.
then saturday i got up and went to my spinning group, which was delightful, even if it was a bit hard to leave the house in the cold. i came home, made mac n' cheese with bison hotdogs for lunch and then went to the gym and spent a half hour on the eliptical machine. it was the first time i'd used one and i really enjoyed it. especially since i could use my ipod.
i got home, showered, and then christa came over and joined us for dinner, a little gaming and some batman. she's a nice lady. i also finished my slippery socks(pictures to come) while she was over and began my new clapotis. it will be interesting to see how long it takes me to make one now that i have a pretty good idea of how the pattern works. so far it seems to be going pretty fast. i think the deep blue color will be gorgeous when it is finished.
i am really hoping the slippery blue socks do not felt. arucania ranco has a bit of a reputation, and i put way too much work into these for them to felt on me.
sunday ross and i got up early and headed out to montevideo to see his family. we had lunch with his grandparents and set dates for our september vaction with them. at this point the plan is to take a week and a half and go to yellowstone and the grand titons. i am hoping things will not be ridiculously crowded since we are going after labor day. the idea is that we will do breakfast and lunch with his grandparents and then spend the day doing whatever we want in the area - biking, hiking, horse-back riding, sitting in the natural springs....i've never been to that part of the country before and i am pretty excited about it. the boss has already given me a tentative yes - which i was pretty much counting on with more than six months notice. of course...we will have to see if i'm even in the same job at that point. 3M has extended all it's contract workers contracts for a year, but now that my computer is working again (thanks to ross), i am going to be looking.
i have also decided to sign up here
to do some volunteering with adult literacy. it's $30 or so for the training, but i've about accepted that i'm not going to be in my feild for a while. so if i'm going to give back to my community i need to find a different way to do it for now. and i think i would enjoy this.
we have been using our fireplace a LOT. i turn it on for a few minutes in the morning while i do my sit-ups and feel good that i can be warm without heating up the whole house. then we often wind up using in the evenings.
and since my computer is working again - voila! you get a picture.
here it is, fully stained, tile in place, with mantle mounted. we are thinking maybe a big plant should go on top, although the cats feel it should be their private domain. we will see who wins. i'm not sure who's paw that is in the corner.
today it is cold, but it will be getting up to 37 by wednesday. i'm not ready for spring yet, but i can feel its approach.
our friend ryan's mother died a week ago of cancer and stroke. it was sudden and she was only 58. we are hoping to see him this week and i'm going to put together some goodies for him after he gets back from denver (on work). if you can keep him and his family in your prayers/meditations/whatever, i would be grateful.
also i have yarn. lots of yarn. mainly gotten for free at the knit out. i don't normally use acrylic or buy it. some acrylic is very nice, but i don't want to perpetrate use of something that doesn't really biodegrade....but i didn't buy this stuff, and some of it will be very good for charity knitting.( pictures for those of you who care )